ive recently been going to church alot. i hate is actually idk why. i think im just angry all the time idk. well im finally blogging on here. idk if anyone reads this shit anyway but oh well its my blog i can write watever i want. but i would like it if people actually payed attention to me. i wish alot of thigns actually i say actually alot. damm idk wat to talk about. well im at my friend kevins house with a bunch of nerdy guys but they are cool. well i thin im gonna tell my friend to read my blog so she knows wat goes on in my head. ive been not able to express my creativity for a while now. idk where to start. i wish i could express everything that is in my head my mind, my thoughts. eveything, even the things i dream about and i think of some pretty radical shit sometimes. liek zebras unicorns and flying animals things that are just crazy. i like to be random to. i think right now im just extremely bored so im just talking like nuts right now.
im very lonely, all the time. i have a boyfriend thats always mad at me and i hardly see. i wish i could just live with him already. i love him so much. but im still lonely i think i need more friends. idk wat i need. please tell me wat i need, plz? OMG! im so bored. i just txted someone hopefully they respond. no not yet they havent. there is some freaky japanese music in the background. its kinda werid. and someone keep swearing. see that girl in that pic? i feel like her. i feel like im being drowned in something i dotn want to be a part of anylonger. BUT I LOVE LIFE GROUP! my leader is the nicest, sweetest girl i have every met omg i love that girl. i tried to volunteer today at a kitten shelter, but it was closed! sick bastards. idk it just came to my head. i think i have a mild schizophrenia because i hear alot of scary shit sometime sthat i nknow nobody else hears. my friend says its the devil but i just think im mentally ill.
man i have this secret inside of me that i wish i could let out but i know it would just scare people off if i told them. its driving me crazY! HOWEOJMNALj! i wish i had some paint right now i would just paint this whole dam wall in front of me. some dark blue paint. yesssss rub it everywhere. muhaha. craziness. well im getting bored of this so im gonna go.././
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